Currently Playing Beautiful Day, Pt. 2 By U2 see related

Hello world....beautiful, beautiful world...

Something has come over me...some change...

I haven't been so happy in a long time...

My homework is done, everyday, on time...my grades for third quarter were good...I am down to 105 and still working out and eating good...I get to see my dance friends this weekend AND my NFTY friends on Sunday...Tom and I are doing wonderfully...I went shopping and bought new clothes for the first time in like a year...I got to go out with Renee and Chelsea this week...I'm going to visit UDelaware next weekend...the Overall Road Trip is coming up...my prom dress is going to be beautiful...life is just...good...

I watched Garden State the other day...well twice really...I love it...except, Tom and I really will have an elipse...only,  I always write something after my elipses...even if it's a few lines later    Right now I'm going to go look for a Senior Kallah dress at the mall, and then later I think I might get a gym membership!!  I can't tell you how good it feels to be happy

I know I haven't written in a long time, but trust me, you didn't want to hear me complain.  I was really down...it would have been bad...

Things are looking up...It's a beautiful day...just always remember that EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, and if you never give up, things will turn out okay...even if you don't believe they ever will...

Thank you for everyone who stuck by me...you've helped more than you know...

HERE'S TO LIFE!!   *~*Heather*~*

So I know it's been awhile but I've been going nuts doing all the work I missed before the quarter ended (today).  Monday night was all Economics, Tuesday night was Playwriting, Wednesday and Thursday night were Precalculus.  I finished it, amazingly, and I worked my ass off.  Unfortunately, I didn't have time to do my Practicing Teaching paper/journals, or read for AP English.  Which means that I would fail Practicing Teaching if I didn't turn everything in on Monday (extension).  However, with conclavette, that would be impossible.  Therefore, conclavette had to go.  Not happy about it, in fact really depressed/pissed about it.  I worked so hard, so hard, and got so close, and then just couldn't do it.  I know that it will be great when I get all As, but I still feel like such an absolute failure.  Especially since this weekend was one of the reasons why I gave up the musical.  It's my own fault though - I let myself get behind because of personal things and lack of motivation and it came back to get me.  I even worked with Mr. C and talked to all my teachers and they were great and I tried so hard.  But no, not enough.  I'm just done, really.  I need to keep up with everything fourth quarter or I'll be screwed.  And I'm tired of being depressed and shit.  It just sucks.

Home sick today, going to the doctor.  By the way, I weighed 109 this morning, which is absolutely gross.  I'm completely disgusted with myself.  I look wicked fat.  So I'm doing some serious healthy eating and exercising or I don't know but 109 is completely unacceptable, and that was in the morning!  You always weigh less in the morning!  Whatever, I'm done.  Need to get back to work...
*~*Heather*~*

Happy Easter/Happy Purim Carnival Day!  lol

So this morning was the Purim Carnival.  Lots of fun.  I got to be a waitress lol.  Seniors took a really good picture and we rocked out to some quality music while selling food.  It was good times.

Went to Tom's for Easter.  His mom made me a very cute Easter basket which I greatly appreciated.  We had ham/lamb with two kinds of potatoes, carrots, and rolls.  Very, very good.  Then we watched American Wedding and The Incredibles.  Both excellent movies.  His families cool, though I guess they don't really talk a lot.  Yea...

My mom brought me home two dresses to try on for Kallah.  One didn't fit at all, and the other one is nice, but I don't love it.  I'm going to keep it anyway just in case.  She also got me a nice, dressy halter top and a "Who Can Resist A Jewish Girl" shirt...both of which are key lol.

That's it for now.  I decided not to play Ultimate...there are reasons.  I mean, I'm not in good enough shape, no one really thinks I can do it and I don't think I believe in myself enough to.  I'll probably just make a fool of myself.  I'm better off with dance...yea.  Ttylata
*~*Heather*~*

PS - WEIGHT: 107

Good morning!

WEIGHT: 107  So yea, I've decided to start weighing myself at the beginning of each day, because quite frankly, I need incentive to eat well.  I have been doing better though, eating better I mean, and I went for a run/did a ton of crunches yesterday, so I'm sore but feeling good.  Today I think I'll hit the treadmill, this way I can see how far I actually ran.

Yesterday was an okay day.  I was mad tired though.  Oh, and, my wallet and calculator was stolen.  Someone turned the wallet in to the front office and they had taken my credit card, $30 Weathervane gift certificate, any money I had, and my Timberlane Gold Card.  I was pissed.  Who does that, ugh!  Anyway, my mom cancelled the credit card and I'm writing up a school report with Officer Marsilia on Tuesday so yea.  Other than that, we watched The Natural in AP again, took a Precalc test that I bombed, and read some funny dialogues in Playwriting.  Last night I hung out with Tom.  It was fun...but o man, what a fucked up ending to the night lol.  ...wow...

That's about it.  Today is a strictly homework day, and I'm going to see the play at 7:30 tonight.  Should be good, I've heard it's awesome.  Ttylata!
*~*Heather*~*

Currently Playing Why Don't You & I By Santana see related

Hello world!

Today was a good day...finally!  We had a two hour delay which was beautiful since the AP project really messed with my sleep, and then as soon as I got to school I passed in the rest of my stuff.  Mr. Dev looked happy that I got it done, which was good.  Shortened periods followed.  Nothing really exciting.  In AP we are watching The Natural, a baseball movie starring Robert Redford.  Fifth period I was harassed by the guys (Rob I'm going to kill you lol), and the rest of the day was fairly uneventful.  Afterschool there was a meeting for Big Buddy, Little Buddy.  I participated last year and it was so much fun so hopefully I can do it again this year.

So yea, in an odd turn of events, I do believe that I am going to play Ultimate Frisbee this year.  I've never played a sport in high school, but it's not that I'm unathletic, I've just always done dance.  I really need to get back into shape though, and I mean, I love football, so why not give this a try.  Plus, Tom and Pablo really want me to do it, and there are some girls playing that I know.  Deveney said it really wasn't that bad, except there is a lot of running involved...which I'll have to work on.  Oh well, I mean, if I hate it, I can always stop.  I think it might be fun for a change, and I could really use the exercise.

I guess that's all.  I'm fairly happy right now.  Tonight I'm catching up on all my math homework, and I think Tom is coming over later.  Maybe I'll even watch some American Idol while I run on the treadmill lol.  Catch ya lata!
*~*Heather*~*